Post #37 – I’m exhausted . . . but got my strength back

Well, Paul made it back home safe and sound.  He came home happier than I have seen him in quite awhile.  He said that the trip was a success.  When I asked him if he experienced any miracles, he said that the sheer fact that the home is empty and EVERYTHING was given away (except our most expensive furniture – it still needs to be taken care of somehow.  Any suggestions?).  That and having ALL the help he could manage to ask, for was the GREATEST miracle of them all.

I am very grateful that he was able to work all week on the house, walking a total of 40 miles in one week, but that he was able to visit with so many people that HE loves.  His parents, his siblings & their families, our dearest friends & neighbors, his Grad School friends, my father & step mother, and then he got to see many ward members at the garage sale.  He especially loved giving everything away after 12 o’clock on Saturday.  Our painter actually took everything that was going to Deseret Industries.  That saved Paul one more thing that needed to be done. Hallelujah!

What a joy it is to have last week be a success and all over with.  Yes, we still have a terribly broken down family car that needs expensive repairs and our house still needs to be sold but, we have hope that one day these problems will be solved and will pass.  So for now, we are celebrating what we CAN do each day, not what we can’t.

I came across this sweet lady yesterday and felt I wanted to remember her because she tied into some wonderful scriptures that I also wanted to remember.  The scriptures are found in Alma 5:35-36, they state

35 Yea, come unto me and bring forth works of righteousness, and ye shall not be hewn down and cast into the fire—

36 For behold, the time is at hand that whosoever bringeth forth not good fruit, or whosoever doeth not the works of righteousness, the same have cause to wail and mourn.

This scripture REALLY moved me because I had been praying fervently to know how to STOP dwelling on the crappy mom that I am and instead find joy in being a mother.  When I found these scriptures, it HIT ME!  When I focus on the “crappy” of my life or the “crappy” that I give in life, I have “cause to wail and mourn.”  But when I instead focus on the “righteousness’ of my day, on the “good fruit” I give, I have happiness and joy.  I have what it is described in this verse below . . . Alma 5:34

34 Yea, he saith: Come unto me and ye shall partake of the fruit of the tree of life; yea, ye shall eat and drink of the bread and the waters of life freely;

I DO HAVE all that I need and I DO live life FREELY when I focus on the GOOD that I do and have done to me in a day.  I AM NOT PERFECT!  I have NEVER been a mother before, I have NEVER been a wife before, or daughter, or neighbor to the neighbors I have right now, or lived in a foreign country, nor have I been 40 years old before with the body that I have right now.  I have also NEVER been sick for so long and had to recover from it. I am NEW EVERY DAY and I CAN make each new day worth celebrating, worth giving in righteousness.

This sweet woman’s messages really helped me this week.  I hit a major stand still today and ended up taking a much needed 3 hour morning nap.  I woke up and felt that I slept hard, do you know that feeling.  I almost felt sick but then took a HUGE step back and let myself experience this kind of exhaustion.  I relaxed, helped Curly Cook with her school work, taught Joy Boy about the POWER of the Book of Mormon and how if the Book of Mormon is true then Joseph Smith was a prophet of God, the Church of Jesus Christ has been restored to the earth AND Jesus Christ not only lives but stands at the HEAD of HIS CHURCH.

I also received joy in the form of GingerSnap serving me lunch in bed, El Gringo not complaining when I asked him to go get lettuce from our “lettuce lady,” and the kids cleaning all the toilets in the house, on top of putting away their laundry.  I also served GingerSnap by folding her laundry while she was having a difficult morning and then editing her new book that she is writing.  Good things happened today.

I highly recommend these stories when you need a boost of perspective or help in finding the joy in your life!

“Falling Up” – Meg Johnson’s story

“What to do when you don’t feel like laughing”

“What to do when the clouds cover (almost) all the sunshine”

Thanks for listening!

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