I really miss early morning, 4:25 a.m. wake-up time, Seminary.
Yep, I said it. Getting up at 5:00 a.m. to read my scriptures in my t.v. room just isn’t the same as sitting in my car to watch the sunrise. First of all, look at the reflection and division on the sliding glass door. In my car I have an almost unobstructed view of the morning skyline. Second of all, I can EASILY be interrupted; not in my car! And third of all, I just don’t have the focus like I do during Seminary. I truly believe that I am blessed for the service I give each day, which allows me to truly dive into my scriptures and FEEL like I have gained something that morning.
But for now, I shouldn’t complain. I need to make the most of sleeping in and enjoy the “extra” time I have at night with Paul or by myself. And just LOOK at this sunrise this morning. The light is so brilliant and the clouds look as if their eyes are fluttering awake. But then I looked deeper . . .
Just look at those trees! Because of the darkness still present this morning, during the brilliant sunrise, a stark contrast was presented as I looked at the trees. I could see almost EVERY detail of the trees’ branches. I could also see almost every branch or limb, every leaf if I dared to observe long enough.
Even the GIANT TREE in the next-door property looked even more grand and full of detail. I was deeply amazed and richly blessed. IN THIS MOMENT, I had a HUGE realization come to me. Without the contrast of darkness and light, I would never had noticed the intricate details and beauty of what has been around me, every single day!
My FAVORITE picture this morning was of the leaves and branches on my “Singing Tree.” This tree is my friend. It is filled daily with a variety of lovely birds that sing to me through my bedroom, sliding glass doorway. I love this tree. It blooms the most gorgeous red blossoms and it sways gently in the breeze. He is my friend and I find comfort and protection in him. I appreciate him but I have NEVER NOTICED him quite like this before.
A rush of emotion came over me as I REALIZED that I actually APPRECIATE the darkness in my life. Without the dark times, I would NEVER be able to notice the tiny details that are so perfectly wonderful and actually built to make everything so beautiful. Without darkness, we get caught up in the variety of colors of life, comparing one tree to another because of their differences. But in the darkness, we can simply appreciate each individual tree for its own unique worth. Like this beautiful palm tree. I KNEW that the leaves had little “strings” hanging from them but in the darkness, with the light shining with brilliant force from behind, you can REALLY SEE the details and majesty of each splendid leaf. I truly stand all AMAZED!
So, although I am trying to be patient for the sun to fully rise again in our lives, bringing us warmth, comfort and the ability to see clearly what lies ahead for us, I am choosing to STOP and capture the beautiful moments of living mostly in the dark for now. I am GRATEFUL for this opportunity to discover and understand something I could not before this moment. Because of the darkness that seems to be all around me, I am learning that this scripture is so very true . . .
And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.
And who makes this all possible? Jesus Christ.
He makes all of this learning, growth and love possible. I am truly thankful for Him choosing to be a part of my life and for Him making my journey on earth so sweet. Because of His BRILLIANT LIGHT, I could see clearly the tiny, intricate details of what was standing before me. His light is what makes it possible for me to truly see clearly. And it is my Father in Heaven’s plan for me that allows me to walk through the darkness at times, not to set me up for failure, but to achieve success. Success in learning to become more like Him.
“God be thanked for the matchless gift of His divine Son.” – The Family Proclamation
Enjoy this lovely song. Merry Christmas and . . .
Thanks for listening,