I almost didn’t blog tonight. It’s so late, almost 11 pm, and I am trying to get on an earlier schedule than I’ve been on for the last few weeks.
With homeschool coming together full-time this week, I am going to lose time for my personal studies if I don’t get them done first thing in the morning. . . because that is exactly what happened today!
Homeschool took over my day and found me without peace, privacy, or the time to do what I should have done this morning. . . Because I chose to do other tedious things this morning, like filling in the school planner, which could be done easily later this week. 🤦🏻♀️
Anyway, I learned my lesson today and hope to repent and try better tomorrow to get my personal scripture study time completed first thing in the morning. My hope is that this 👇🏻 young woman’s gift will also extend to me once again, for I had this same gift happen to me all the time when I practiced faithful scripture study in Costa Rica . . .
“Every night, before I went to bed, I would read the scriptures. I would ponder and pray, asking my Father in Heaven if they were true. As I finished and climbed into bed, I felt a warm, tingly sensation through me. I knew my prayers were being answered. Through the week I found I was happier and more helpful. I did better in school. I found the time to study and remembered what I was taught. Usually my mother and I argue about things, but that week I found the patience to listen and understand her point of view, which is something that isn’t easy for me. I felt better about myself than I had in ages. I also noticed the Lord made more time for me to continue my scripture studies.”Kirstin Boyer, My Prayers Were Answered
I know that when I “busy myself,” I’m not acting by faith. Instead I’m trying to ignore the fact that I am unsure of what is going on in our lives, so I focus on completing menial tasks that really don’t matter, somehow thinking that they will validate that I accomplished something of value today. 🤪
When I catch myself doing this, i am able to see that I need to be honest that I am finding it difficult to face reality and I am not allowing myself to willingly sit in the discomfort that living in the unknown causes . . . but avoiding it all together won’t do me any good either. So I need to choose the tough road and GROW through the discomfort, instead of missing the opportunity to grow all together!
I actually really liked this scripture I just barely read (at 10:30 pm) from this week’s CFM lesson. The word steadfastly jumped out at me.
8 But behold, they did watch steadfastly for that day and that night and that day which should be as one day as if there were no night, that they might know that their faith had not been vain.3 Nephi 1:8
🧐 Hum. Unwavering manner. Dutifully firm. Watching Steadfastly. Yep, that sounds like us alright. We are waiting and watching, seeking and praying, being humble yet hopeful. All to know what next? . . . That we too might know that our faith wasn’t in vain.
I suppose I don’t mind blogging about our current situation so much, because now at least you too can wait and watch steadfastly with us, as we wait to see “what next?”
In the meantime, it has cooled down here for us in Virginia, but the cool weather has unleashed some nasty mosquitoes! 🦟 I thought they were bad in Costa Rica, but OUCH! 😫 These welts show how vicious these mosquitoes are. In one night I got over 20 bites on my appendages. Paul doesn’t seem to have any. Maybe it’s my sweet blood that they like? Either way, thank heaven for Lavender oil!!! It is the best relief from the terrible itchy pain these welts have caused.
Now off to bed. And hopefully, I’ll blog earlier tomorrow too. . . which would be another hopeful blessing that could await IF I get to sleep and wake up on time. 🙏🏻
Oh, and GingerSnap starts her first day of “regular” Seminary tomorrow. For 3 years she has either had to take Seminary: completely in a foreign language, through the home-study/do-it-yourself program 😝, or through a once a week online group discussion that taught the daily lessons online through canvas.
But not this time. This year she has the opportunity to attend a daily Seminary class every morning (via Zoom for now) at 6:30 a.m, just like kids do in Utah!!
This is WEIRD! I actually almost prefer the online way she used last year; it is a super cool program. But she is so excited! So really all that matters is that she feels this way will work well for her too!
I have to say, it will be strange for one of my children to actually have real teachers teaching her a lesson each day, and with other students also attending. Homeschoolers. 😉
Wow. This feels strange. But also a bit wonderful too! Best wishes GingerSnap! I’m super excited for you! 💕