So, I’ve been ponderizing these scriptures the last few days. . .
19 For I will, saith the Lord, that they shall hide up their treasures unto me; and cursed be they who hide not up their treasures unto me; for none hideth up their treasures unto me save it be the righteous; and he that hideth not up his treasures unto me, cursed is he, and also the treasure, and none shall redeem it because of the curse of the land.
20 And the day shall come that they shall hide up their treasures, because they have set their hearts upon riches; and because they have set their hearts upon their riches, and will hide up their treasures when they shall flee before their enemies; because they will not hide them up unto me, cursed be they and also their treasures; and in that day shall they be smitten, saith the Lord.
21 Behold ye, the people of this great city, and hearken unto my words; yea, hearken unto the words which the Lord saith; for behold, he saith that ye are cursed because of your riches, and also are your riches cursed because ye have set your hearts upon them, and have not hearkened unto the words of him who gave them unto you.
22 Ye do not remember the Lord your God in the things with which he hath blessed you, but ye do always remember your riches, not to thank the Lord your God for them; yea, your hearts are not drawn out unto the Lord, but they do swell with great pride, unto boasting, and unto great swelling, envyings, strifes, malice, persecutions, and murders, and all manner of iniquities.
23 For this cause hath the Lord God caused that a curse should come upon the land, and also upon your riches, and this because of your iniquities.Helaman 13:19-23
Now, let me preface that I’m not ponderizing them in a negative, pitiful way. Instead I’m taking some time to truly look inside and ask myself – in a mindful, purposeful way – if my misery is coming from me not “laying up my treasures unto the Lord?”
I think the answer is yes. Instead of giving my treasures willingly to Him, I have been holding onto them, carrying them, while trying to find some familiarity to this new life we are recently living.
A friend today shared an AWESOME analogy with me. I loved it so much, I do hope she doesn’t mind me sharing it on my blog.
The analogy comes from her daily yoga practice. She shared that she has never had an issue with doing the “balancing moves” in yoga, until recently. No matter how hard she tries, she can barely hold up one leg now. She has been wondering why the change in her abilities? Is it due to age, focus, ability, or could the ground she is practicing on really make that big of a difference? Recently she has had to practice yoga outside on paver stones. They appear to be a flat surface? So why can’t she do these simple moves anymore?
Then she went on a trip with her husband to a hotel. She decided to do her regular yoga practice in the hotel room and “surprise!” . . . she found that not only could she do the balancing moves. . . But she also immediately noticed how much stronger she was at doing them, as well as better!!!
Did the ground she had to use really make that big of a difference? Apparently it does!
The relief she felt that she hadn’t lost her abilities after all was astounding, yet when she returned to her yoga practice outside on the paver stones, she found that she couldn’t achieve a balancing move again!
I love this story! I love the honesty and the hope that it brought to my mind and heart, pertaining to my current situation. I love that her story gave me a clear example that if I know I am supposed to practice, then practice, regardless of having the perfect place to practice. . . because we might be even stronger than we were on “solid ground”. And then the next time we find ourselves on solid ground, how much more easier and more enjoyable will it be to practice there?
Ironically, I have been praying for an experience like this to happen for me and my family. I wanted our family to be able to hold onto and preserve the foundation we had built during our time in Costa Rica.
Maybe that is part of the reason I crashed and burned mentally, emotionally, and spiritually last week. I kept feeling guilt and shame for how these experiences were affecting my family and that they were even happening, because maybe I felt that something like this needed to happen?
But my friend’s story today, as well as the scriptures above, showed me grace. They taught me mercy. And they taught me that ultimate love is available, no matter the ground we are on. Because our life experiences have been uniquely created for our good. . . If we choose to live life willingly and with full purpose of heart. 💕
This is what living the gospel means to me! This is hope at its finest. Things will work out because they are created to. All things are created for our good!!!
In closing, I will share a quote from the read-out-loud book we are reading as a family.
[During the Korean War, President Nelson] met a a young Latter-day Saint soldier who had been paralyzed by a gunshot wound. He wondered how to comfort the young man and ended up being the one comforted when the soldier said, “Don’t worry about me, Brother Nelson, for I know why I was sent to earth – to gain experiences and work out my salvation. I can work out my salvation with my mind and not with my legs. I’ll be all right!” [President Nelson] recorded afterward that “the faith of that young man has motivated me ever since.”Insights From a Prophet’s Life, by Sheri Dew, page 43
Life can be what we choose to make it. I’m truly grateful that I’m never alone in this quest. I’ll gladly give my treasures over to Him. It not only will make the journey lighter, but my future will also be so much brighter.