28 . . . Consider the lilies of the field how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin;
29 And yet I say unto you, that even Solomon, in all his glory, was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, even so will he clothe you, if ye are not of little faith.
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 For your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient is the day unto the evil thereof.3 Nephi 13 (compare also to Matthew 6)
Yesterday was a unique day. I had the privilege of meeting someone who has a similar situation to our family’s and yet, even after giving her all the encouragement, compassion, and immediate love that I could offer her . . . I walked away from that conversation feeling foolish, even a bit of a big talker.
I don’t know this woman. She is a complete stranger, and yet we have more in common than most can find after a few years of friendship or family life. Her husband is also unemployed, our daughter’s are fond of the idea of being friends to one another, they too moved to Virginia from someplace else, and we are both members of the same church. Yet how could I dare to assume that my heartfelt concern for her could even help her through one moment of her struggles, her heart ache, her pain, or her suffering? 🤦🏻♀️
I shutter to think that I might have said anything that would misrepresent truth. That I could have said anything that could be proven absolutely wrong. Or worse, that I could have said anything that Heaven wouldn’t do, but proclaimed that They would. 😣
But as I sit here pondering my words . . . the scriptures above comfort me. Guide me. Almost scold me to stop this downward spiral of overthinking.
The scriptures are living proof that God loves me, loves her, and that we are known. Maybe I’m just frightened that I don’t believe what I shared with her and I’ll be tested to prove if I do? But then again, that’s fear and doubt talking. Maybe I’m nervous to be happy, when I see others are just doing their best to keep it together? I don’t know. Do any of us “deserve” to be happy? And what is happiness? It is different for each of us.
So, when things get hard, or even just confusing, I plead with myself to not forget that being in the moment, really present, really doing all I can to be where I am needed to be, that that it is enough. It has to be. And that it is okay right now. Because God says so. (Verse 34👆🏻)
Now yes, can tomorrow change on me in a heartbeat? Yes. But will I be alone? That’s up to me to decide. I may feel alone, think I am alone, or even truly be alone, but “the Son” is always there, even when there are terrible storms. I pray I remember this truth. 🙏🏻
So please, if any of you reading this know of someone facing the unimaginable, please oh please, trust in the light that is within you, for that is all that we have left these days. We might doubt that what we are doing or saying isn’t helping, but if we give our all and give it away to be used the way that the person decides they need to use it most, then we can help. We did help. Somehow. Some way.
I have to trust this.
Also, if you want to see a cute, clean movie, I just learned of this one two days ago. I watched it and like it very much. And I’m picky about what I allow myself to watch. I hope you will enjoy it too. And maybe, one day, I will finally learn to plant and tend my own garden. (Gotta see the movie to understand). Take care!
Picture used above is from here.